The perfect way to break your own heart

Have you ever really liked someone and just sat there hoping that they liked you back?
Well I have a problem far worse than that... I really like someone and I feel that they might like me too...We are same-same but different. They are leaving and my heart is already broken with the thought of losing them but I can't expect them to drop their whole life for me...I know that they have to leave, it's the way life goes....so I have to work at getting over them now before I corrupt them with my sadness and darkness, they have to be able to leave without having to look back.. So I'm working on something that could completely kill my soul, but I think I have to. And who knows maybe they never liked me anyway...but at least I can look at them and say they were one of the very best things that happened to me...
(V.S)

Hell....my world

Have you ever felt like it's the whole world against just you??? I look around and realize I'm the only one who actually notices how I am drowning. I'm so deep down, I can barely breathe and no-one will look closely enough underneath the surface to save me. I find myself paralyzed... every single muscle or bone in my body is fighting to resurface me but my heart is sinking me further and further down. most of my family and friends are on the other side of the surface making sure I don't make it back to the top without even knowing it. I'm reaching out to try and tell them but I seem to be the distant splashing of the waves crashing to them. My vision on my reasons to live becomes more of a blur with each painful moment of my existence. I'm not trusted, I'm too annoying, I'm too weird, demented... I'm everything evil and twisted and dark and ugly they can think of...Bullies may come or go but that pain lasts forever digging someone's grave more every time.... If  you are one of the few that can hear me....

HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Don't stop at the surface...always dig a little deeper, dive a little further
I know what pain it could save....